I don't know but I believe,
There's some things are meant to be,
You'll make a better me,
Everyday I Love You ...

it's the pain and exam is tomorrow. how am i going to sit for this exam? sighhh ~~

everything happened just like a dream ...

It was a busy busy week .. firstly due to workloads ...unfinish work .. but I am in need to go for a week or two medical leave, as health is more important , i rather let go my work and only continues with it when I am back after that ..

Received phone call and was told that something happened to my big uncle, got slashed behind the head, 5-6 slashes on the face and also on the leg. It happened so out of sudden.

He was sent to a nearest hospital in Klang from his working place in Teluk Anson, Perak. Badly injured and unconscious, and he stand it for that few days until last Saturday, we received calls from other relatives saying that he is gone, for real. He is no longer here.

I took a home-leave from hospital for 2 hours and rushed to the Klang hospital and was unable to see him for the last time. The tears just kept dropping out of my eyes. Not me alone, is all of us. I do not know how to response at that time.

And I went back to the hospital I admitted in and prepare for the operation booked and everything went well. Mum was busy with the family matter as uncle passed away so suddenly. Thank god bf was looking after me for that few days until I was discharged on Monday. Thank you fellow friends for visiting and the boxes of chicken essense and also thank you for the basket of flowers + fruits from colleagues.

The moment I was discharged, I rushed to the ceremony at uncle's place. Looking at him sleeping inside the casket, my tears drop again, and I couldnt stop it. I hate those people who did this to him. Don't this people feel bad after doing it? Damn ...

He is among one of the uncle(s) i respect the most in my family. A very very nice guy, honest and loving. His demise is the lost to all of our family members. It was a shocked to us as well and we are still thinking of him day and night even after the funeral service. All of his workers, even travelled down from Perak with buses and cars to pay the last respect to him. That shows how well he treats his workers and all. The whole place was also showered with more than 50 bouquet of flowers from friends and relatives.

The whole ceremony was a sorrow and full with tears, from relatives and even friends. It is very hard to accept his death, he is still young, strong and healthy guy. Everything is just like a dream. However, what gone is already gone, he will be always in our heart and mind. We'll be forever loving you, Uncle. May you Rest In Peace ~

This is the 5th or 6th time, he said that to me .. and is for real ...I thought he won't be treating me like this .. and I m wrong ... as friends said, there is no true love in this world .. and I am slowly believing it ..

Something to/not cheer about

Oh yes it is a happy thing, cos 1st CCP paper is over. Had been studying for that paper in less than a week! The feel is just like way back in Uni life during the exam weeks etc. I miss that moment. *sobz* ..

For some of you was wondering what is CCP, the full name for it is "Certified Credit Professional". Some sort of like, it is a requirement for credit personnel in banking and finance industry, for further enhancement in your career, and that would be useful I hope. :p ..

And so, that's only the 1st paper, and the 3rd & 5th are coming on their way. Result for 1st CCP paper is not out yet, and I m in the un-sure standing, whether I can pass it or not. For your information, the passing marks is 80%. Sounds scary right? But really hope that I have the enough knowledege and luck or whatsoever to pass that paper and also to pass for the whole course. Bless me!

Soon after the paper, which fell on last Saturday, and it is the time to get back to work! Can you imagine how your table will be like when you got back to the office after a week of leave? Files, documents and papers all over your table .... awaiting me to come back and settle it!!! It is a crazie week I can say, and higher management is pushing us to speed up the processing(s). How to finish an application, as thick like a thesis, with our justifications, our mitigations, our credit explanations, risk analysis & mitigations etc etc, in a day? Besides that, sometimes customers are not cooperative enough to furnish the documents or more information for us to speed up. And sometimes it is the system itself, lag and slow and error here and there, how are they expecting us to write a paper (just like an assignment) in a day? Our job is like , doing all the works (A-Z) and with less pay.

What to do, that is life! And due to the economy turmoil, we have no choice, but to continue our work. Having a job and get paid, rather than get retrenched and without a work. That is even something not to cheer about. But, seriously, I still do enjoy my work alot, but I m really tired of all these. Had been busy for the whole week, therefore, I need to ffk my dear friends, and I am really really sorry, as I could not join the fun to Malacca today. I will next time :) .

Signing off to rest. What a lovely weekend!

It has been a long long time since I last updated my blog. What to do ? I am really busy with my work, till I neglected my social life, my enjoy life etc etc etc lots and lots more ... HAHA ..

Oh gosh, looks like I need to catch back all my time spent on my work ... :)

I really don't know what can I do!! I really don't know how to express my feelings! This is where my weakness is! I know that I'll get "bombak" whenever I express my feelings, whether is wrong or right when I think is right. So, I rather shut up and keep it.